i'd almost forgotten you

I'm older now, a fair few years older than I was when I last put some thought into writing about myself. Things have happened and quite frankly they still sound like a big drama fest... how drab.

I'm working on that though, and I know no one really reads this but I like putting it out there anyways. I don't read much, I can't sing, I think I'm a poor excuse for an artist with media to paper and musically, I'm not very intelligent, or pretty either, my passions are few to none, and my aspirations go in the same bucket. I don't know where I'm going in life but I am happy.

I'm in love.

I work hard at my job.

On occasion I spoil myself.

I live a fairly simple life.

I only wish to make myself into someone I am proud to be.

And so life goes on.

I'm sure I'll figure it all out some day, but until then I think I'll just get some sleep and start another work day. Maybe I'll get a hint today.

~Pura Vida.

life just ain't what it seems...

well, as the title states, its true....sadly, but true. and its not only life thats a lie, but some friends are too.

sorry for just stating something obscure, but im feeling really indifferent right now seeing as i've kinda sorta lost my bf...its a strange and long story that i dont wish to delve into atm since ive repeated the story bout 3-4 times in all of one day, so im putting it to rest for now. 

ive a friend who happens to be a starbucks fiend, he also works there haha but even with him pushing the starbucks ways i still loves him :P he sent me the link to this vid, and really the idea of it is so ridiculously funny i just had to share!!! (he's not a religious starbucks pusher thank god haha)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D7_dZTrjw9I

love and miss you all!

:D

jek

1,2,3,4,5,6,7....etc....etc....etc....

guess what guys and gals....BIG NEWS!!!

first: i fucked my chemistry mark over royally! yay me!......i despise chemistry from the utter depths of my heart....if such darkness exists there :D

second: ive a boyfriend! YAY! im happy, he's a cutie and he treats me good! i spoil him rotten :3

third: ive admitted to being bi. :)

forth: i havent seen my best girl in forever and its truly disappointing :(

fifth: im trying to pay off the car.... doesnt work so well living off 200$/2weeks..... *sigh* gas money...

sixth: ive planned to move out in april, i dont care where i go, i just need to leave! (it may end up tho that i dont go very far, but at least i'll be away from the constrictions of my rents rule and command)

seventh: ive made multiple new friends in the recent weeks and gained a few back to their usual positions, where they dont call me or we dont hang out, but we're 'best best best! friends' and so really nothing changed from loosing them or having them still.... see? it wasnt really a big deal to risk you?

eighth: i found out that DQ makes cotton candy blizzards and they are the MOST AMAZING tasty lil treats ive ever had! ( i love sharing one with my bf every now and then)

ninth: ive realized that if my bf stops smoking i may start cuz im already addicted anyways from childhood... (my rents smoked the same brand <3)

tenth: im reverting back to my old self, the one i thought id lost. my record loving, hippy, healthy nut self, technology addicted, math loving fiend self. i missed me, im slowly going back to gaming and watching my anime (oh btw i may quit hornies and take on PC Bang... sit on facebook and fuck around with the internet for 8 hours of a shift, dealing with lil pervy nerd boys....hmmm.... i think it sounds like a bunch of fun!!!) 

eleventh: i hate school, it hates me and we accept that. if i dont go to school it wont make me suffer, we've come to this agreement and agreed upon it happily :D

twelfth: im loosing weight! slowly, but i am! whoopie!

the summer...

so its summer time hey? a lil late stating the obvious i know but hey! im jobless and living to its most.... well pretty much i get about 12hours of sleep every day and i live in the depths of night. the moon has now officially replaced the sun. i got to the beach on the odd day when somebody decides im important enough to call when they have a day off. i have to work around everybody else's schedule so that i will actually get to see them. it gets pretty interesting. and now im stretching my last 100bucks or so trying to stay alive and still do party's and birthday gifts. its tough but i make it. dog eat dog world out there, right? yes, of course it is, who's dumb enough to not know that... geeze.

so lately ive been hearing a lot of foot traffic on my dead-end lonely road, with the odd car reving on my street at like 3-4AM, its intense and i feel like someone is stalking me. lately ive even had a few friends call me in the AM and be like, "hey im bored, go for a slushie and a slow ride?". hey why not, im bored at that time of the day anyways. 4-5AM ive decided is my new beddybyetime. but you know i havent had a good ol' skinny dip this summer yet, mind you its been pretty blustery lately.... god damned "global warming". i find when the weather isnt going the way you want it to its just easier to blame the other side of the world for all their polluting and curse global warming and totally excuse the fact that you're part of the problem too. haha. ive changed my room around yet again, my friends swear ive got my room moved around every time they visit, something just has to have been changed. this summer ive been eating a lot of Timmy's donuts, man oh man.... i cant believe im not 200pBs yet. but i guess all that furniture moving is probably helping. My gal bff Em got me to do some yoga the other night and dude i never realized it would be that tough, i hope to do some more, maybe i'll repeat some of the things she showed me last night until i get to the actual yoga centre she goes too. one day. 

so ya lately ive been drawing up some sketches for my tattoos that i wish to achieve here in teh nearest future possible. 

List of tattoos:

1. barcode on the back of my neck; reason is because when i watched my first sci-fi movie it dealt with weird guys experimenting on women and they all had barcodes on the back of their necks and ive loved sci-fi ever since. the numbers will be my birthdate and the coordinates of my hometown, i thought that would be cool. and the barcode ive chose is from the last thing my uncle bought me before he past away, my Gorillaz record(plus its my very first record to call my own.)

2. sailboat with my uncles name written somewhere; reason is a memorial to my uncle and he loved sailing, plus he took me and my aunt on a sailing trip a couple years back, was one of the few adventures i got to go with him with out the rest of my close fam.

3. gemini sign, really simple line drawing right one the top of my hand between the pointer finger and thumb tendons; reason i really have a large faith in my stars, fate, and tarot cards. so i thought that would be neato.

4. a heart tattooed on the inside of my thumb, intense may be painful but its small.; reason i have a hard time telling ppl i love them so i try more to do things with my hands to show them i love them. and so this would be more of a note to myself to always remind ppl to tell them "i love you"

5. is a cute lil elephant, pink with its trunk up. my g-ma once told me that pink elephants with their trunks up are good luck. so that where im going with that one.

so ya. life. exciting and such. oh ya! almost forgot im going to travel down to the west coast of CANADA! to visit my aunt. i miss her dearly and especially worry about her since my uncle passed away... i miss him dearly.....*tear*

so okay. now life.... so unenthusing..... oh well life has its short comings, you deal.

love you everybody!!

Pura vida,

and i wish you enough in life. ^^

Jek <3

summer...

well hello all! 

its a blazing summer this year and its out to dehydrate us all!! BEWARE!

i got my Staedler pencils btw yay! and im back into my painting, i got some canvas' for my birthday so im attacking those right now. ANNNNNDDD!!!! IVE GRADUATED FROM HIGHSCHOOL!!!!!!!! YESSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!! so thats amazing.

today was canada day and i celebrated with some of my gals out on a boat later in the night to watch the traditional fireworks for our town, happens every year. but ya that was an extremely exciting event. it was a nice day, then it turned to pouring rain and soaked everything, there was lightning and on the way home when it was like 11:30pm out boat died in the middle of the lake and we were stuck for awhile till we found a flashlight and waved someone over to help tow us all the way back home. it was funny too because the guy who towed us home was someone i knew that had graduated a couple years earlier haha. but it was all good in the end, didnt get home till 1:30am but now everything was perfect and im off to the beach again tomorrow because the weather is beautiful lately, its blazing hot, and even if there is wind or rain its always warm.

man its getting pretty late so im off for today, hope to get back on here soon! ^^

later gater!

Pura vida,

~Jek

*sigh* the fifties...

HEY PEEPS!

oh man guys, long time no blog!! well im back for awhile... hey ive been goin through some yucky times in my life and im trying to get past it all. school is almost done and im wishing it was the fifties again. *sigh* the men were cooler, the cars much more delicious, the women were foxier, and everybody had amazing class! AND you know whats a total bonus!?!?! you weren't expected to be extra extra skinny!!! women could have legs AND still be a total utter FOX! only wish!!!!! to boot the clothing was excentric and delectable! im getting back into my drawing and i neeeeeedddd to go get myself an really nice set of drawing pencils. Staedler is a great brand.... i think thats my choice! yes Opus here i come!! ANDDDDD!!!! the biggest worst day of my life happened on saturday!!! SHANE KOYCZAN was at the Life of Arts Festival AND I DIDNT GET TO GO SEE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *grumble, swear, cuss, grumble, swear...* but ya i gotta get my act together and go see if i can find him at a showing real soon. well im being booted off, i got a math test tomorrow and all... uggh. well ttys!

Pura vida!

~Jek

i passed!...

Hey Peeps!! Aren't you proud of me?? I PASSED A CALCULUS TEST!!! FINALLY!!! and not only passed it but got a decent mark! 70%! i say thats not to shabby. so lifes pretty good, living on cloud 9 and all!
there are somethings bugging me tho. a friend of mine leaves our little town at the end of june and its killin me! i dont know what do think. i talk to him everyday at least or more (if thats possible) and then for summer he's going to leave! its ridiculous, but i guess thats what comes with graduating. i've still the dilema of finding me a nice boy who will treat me nicely(not with money or shit like that). im still searching, as always!
the wild cherry tree's blossoms are coming in!!! its so beautiful! and the days are getting warmer which means i can make better use of my deck!!! YES!

well, i dont have much else to say, i'll talk to y'all later!
~Jek

Hey guys, sorry i havent been there for awhile. lifes been nuts. i got myself a calc tutor finally! and i think im finally getting it! english has been quite the interesting class, last day we got the whole class to start stories using a specific word. this is how mine turned out.
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I'm a boy who loves sleeping under cloudy skies. I have a trick. I can snap my fingers and say sunny and all my troubles get worse. so i dont do it often. but i love the way my nose looks in the mirror ahh... sweet shallowness, my escape from what lurks. I'm coming to a crossroad in my life and soon i will have to make a troublesome decision. Should i get glasses or contacts? Glasses might ruin my beautiful nose, but contacts are just so... so froggy? No, thats a bad description, Annoying is more like it. Although the writing on the wall tells me fairy god fathers are watching us and the mob always knows, so today is when the apples eat the trees and hope is swallowed by Pi to the equivlilent of 3.14, two decimal places. Math, definitly not my strong point perhaps i should not make too many references to 666. it works if you're in a band that has something to do with metallic damsels or something. so i grabbed my plate of caesar salad and steak and headed out onto the porch where i saw the great big shed that i stored everything that i would need to clean up the mess after i finished killing the neighbor. He had always made me mad but mostly after he had shone that bright light into my window in the late hours of the night. Once i cleaned up the mess I decided to put the body into the deep freeze in my basement. The picture of me putting his chopped up limbs into the freezer was very grotesque indeed. But it made me want to go on a rampage since i had already seen the worst. So off i went walking down the street on my so called "rampage". It was a dark cruel side of myself i had never seen before. it made me smile. so i continued on looking for my next victim. i poked my head through the window of a little cabin in the woods and saw a little old lady baking a cake. This was my next victim, i could already contemplate on which one i wanted to get first. the little old lady or her granddaughter. they both were weak since they were girls. i had such intense munchies that i attacked without thinking. i saw a nametag on the girls chest. Her name was April, who would name someone a name that was a month! Jeepers! suddenly i was very tired so i had to lay down, on my gnarly bed mage of hay and sharp forks, constantly piercing my back. i hoped futuristic beds were more comfortable than this because if not i would rather sleep in an umbrella on a pond floating under the stars. Lackadaisically, i dreamt of this sick life i have.

THE END.
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~so this whole story is completely made up. no one was harmed. no i dont share the bits of prejudice that pops up in the story. and no im not actually a boy. this is a collaberation between 27 students to create on random and nutty story. ENJOY!!

life...omg!

hey peeps! again! well today i decided to get my ass off the couch and go for a run, and i did! yay me! i gotta try and define this pair of legs of mine, they've never been my favorite aspect of my appearence. so everyday i'm going to go for a run to the highschool and back, takes about 35-40 mins there and back. hopefully, the more i run the shorter my time will be when i get back. THEN when i get good at that one, i'll change up my route and throw some fair sized hills in there. hahaha! BURN FAT BURN! i've been considering yoga too....hmm...interesting.

oh man, i'm starting to realize how short of time i have left before it is completely necessary that i have my N liscence. ARGH! i need to drive the vehicle to my grad and i don't have my N to be legal to do so!!!!!

ok, just for shits and giggles here. i'm going to blog about some 'artist' at my school. a gr.12 guy did a piece, media = graphite. ok looking at this you dont really notice anything right away, even tho whats kinda hilarious/gross is the most obvious thing in the picture. i'm not sre what it is SUPPOSED TO BE, but i know what it just looks like, a freaking VAGINA! omg, and the guy who drew this you could definitly expect it from. and the thing is, its hanging in plain view for all the public to view. i wonder if anyone else has noticed what this 'crack' actually looks like. i'll attempt at getting a pic up here to see if your opinion differs or agrees with mine. its a must see.

pura vida,
Jenna

smooth sailing, so far

hey y'all! well life is going pretty smooth, today at least. my bf Em is back from her Europe trip ^^ and i got to chat to my other bf Jord who is still in Europe traveling for the next week. he'll be back Friday! i'm so stoked for him to come home! i've been missing him like mad.

so back to school today, no more long luxurious days lying around doing nothing productive with life besides day dream. it's back to the grindstone with my pals. yay for suffering! honestly it's nice to be back in my math class, it's more of a group of ppl who meet everyday to create wonderful comedy skits and to just joke around. we still learn everything of course, but it's just a lot of fun.

ttyse, jek

for Fern McGee

This picture here is done by someone on devaint art. Fern this one's to go with your pic. Love can happen anywhere, even on the dark side!

link: http://gothic-vinter.deviantart.com/art/imperial-love-19066104

typical nasty weather. (joke)

A drunk in a bar notices another guy there almost every night. Every night he's there and every night he takes home a different beautiful woman. So, the drunk gets up the courage and asks him his secret. "How do you do it? You're always taking home these beautiful women!" The guy says, "I'll let you in on my little secret. I walk up to the woman and say, 'Tickle your ass with a feather?' and if she's game, we go back to my place. If she's insulted, I say, 'Typical nasty weather.' She just assumes she misunderstood and I move on to the next conquest." The drunk guy figures, hell, if that guy can do it, so can I. So he stumbles over to the buxom blonde at the bar. "Can I stick a feather in your ass?" "WHAT?!?!" "Fuckin' rain!